| Long time, no write. |
[Mar. 2nd, 2010|11:29 am] |
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| | Fern Beard - The Submarines | ] |
So, wow, it's been forever since I've even been to this site. Only a few days ago did I recover this thing and my xanga and other livejournal (makerunurself). Good Lord! How things have changed. Well, I guess to start I'm now a junior in college at UTSA. I'm majoring in Sociology and minoring in anthropology, though I'm quite interested in primatology (a division of anthropology). I plan on, hopefully, going straight into a masters program once I graduate. I've realized that I love learning, I hate tests but I love to gain knowledge...it's such a great experience, I can't describe how it makes me feel to expand my knowledge base.
No boy situation to update on, I haven't dated anyone since the last which was more than 2 years ago, I guess? I've mostly been focused on school and my possibilities. I'm going up to visit my Uncle Danny this summer in Idaho. I'll be working at his friends' microbrewery, sounds like a good time. I don't feel I have much to report, just wanted to say hi again to my long lost journal.
For anyone that gets on this thing at some point, hope all is going well for ya. :) |
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| My dreams are haunted.. |
[Apr. 3rd, 2007|07:14 am] |
So I had a nightmare last night. I believe I was about 13ish and my sister about 8. It was about visiting and staying in this old 19th century 4 story haunted Victorian. The house's latest "master's" spirit was trapped in the basement and kept calling for someone to let him out. Fortunately I stopped my sister from opening the door several times and saved us, but the final time.. we rode the old-fashioned elevator up to the top floor and went into a grand-ballroom type place where there were expensive furnishings everywhere that my sister had decided to start taking. There were voices throughout the house, except, of course, where my parents where..therefore leading them to believe that it was all made up. The voices weren't like "help me" they were violent and scary. They freaked me out for real and in my dream. I knew it was only a matter of time that if we didn't get out then we'd be doomed and we'd all be killed. The dream was absolutely horrifying, it was vivid like a movie and had such intensity that when I woke up this morning I was panting for air. I don't know why I have dreams like that... though I believe it was my first time to have that dream specifically, I've had a lot of dreams that are just like it.. where some kind of old house is haunted by a terrifying man that did something horrible to his family and scares the shit out of me.
what does that mean?? i want to have it analyzed. i'm curious. |
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| Sick... annoyed... irritated... Betrayed |
[Feb. 8th, 2007|06:14 am] |
I tried.
Dominick told me he wanted a break friday night, we went on a break.. saturday we were suppose to meet up at starbucks, ha. he didn't show up. i went to his house because i had a feeling he was there, he was. we talked, still on a break at the end of the convo. sunday i go to melissa's for most of the day, come home and see on his myspace that there is a comment about me dying, blah blah.. long story short, i found out we broke up on myspace. awesome feeling. get to school yesterday, my friend slips about this letter to this girl that is a junior at my school which dominick had writen at work and given to my friend to pass on to her. the note was given to my friend tuesday, they hid it from me until yesterday. have a horrific meltdown in class, pathetic, left school early. come home and scan the note, post it on his myspace and say something to the effect of you didn't think i was going to find out about this? i message her and warn her of him. the girl and i message back and forth yesterday, she confesses that she didn't know about me and was sorry for everything. today she says that she's going to keep talking to him and thanks for the heads up. whatever, she can be dumb if she wants.
i tried to keep us together, i worked hard. i was dumb. she's dumb. i tried to warn her, she's dumb. |
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| wow. |
[Dec. 18th, 2006|12:23 am] |
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sooo, great moment. dom and i will have been together for 2 months this thursday and only 4 days later is christmas! weho! :) things are pretty good, as weird as it sounds when things between dom and i started seeming rough i decided to look up "aries & aries" relationships and for the most part they've said that it is a great match as long as both parts are willing to contribute and set aside some of their.. self-righteous/importance stuff. most also said that 'when times are good, they're great, when times are bad.. they're horrible.' so i know that when things seem to be going down hill that it's either time to steer clear of each other or a time to get it all out and resolve things to keep this going.
anyway, i'm happy. things are great right now, we're working out our issues and just enjoying each other again. last night was his aunt's surprise bday party, it was crazyy!! haha, i loved it though, his family is quite entertaining. there were probably 40 maybe more people there in his living room and there was dancing, drinking, eating, pretty much just a fun time. i learned some new dance moves, weho, ha. he looked really handsome at the party, i must say i do love that boy. very happy.
:)
love y'all, good night! |
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| Lately... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2006|09:40 pm] |
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right now i kind of feel disconnected with everybody..
idk why.
lately i've been talking to dominick, he's so funny, cute, makes me laugh, smile and happy every time i talk or even just think about him. i sound obsessed.. but really, i'm not, yet at least, lol. idk what's going on there, we'll see. only time can tell.
so other than that, i've been really busy with school, yearbook, work.. everything. i just want to stop and take a breather, this year seems to be flying by soooo fast, where has it gone? it's already October!! WHAT??
haha. anywhos, i just feel very distant from everyone, like there hasn't been time to catch up.. it sucks.. sorry if it feels like i don't care anymore, i do. it's just crazy as hell. i love y'all. things will calm down SOON! :D
<33
p.s. New York's mom looks like a MAN!! |
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[Sep. 16th, 2006|07:59 pm] |
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So i'm having a pretty hard time.
It's really difficult for me to go to College Park day in and day out listening to people talk smack about the place I really want to be at.
I've grown to tolerate CP, my teachers (excluding mrs. butler) are actually ok this year... i'm just having a hard time having so much school spirit and support for sports teams and all that towards the school that isn't mine anymore. i really feel like i'm in a rift between the two schools, like i'm not apart of either.
this reality keeps hitting me every time i think about a football game, or prom, or homecoming, any school related event. as my mom says i have responsibility to college park as the yearbook editor and i can't bad mouth them.. but it's so hard to just sit there and take all of the crap that everyone says about the woodlands. i know this sounds really stupid and you guys are like "who cares about the school they go to?"
i do. i'm one of those people that's always at the football game or always at the lacrosse game or always rooting them on win or lose. and the part that hurts most of all is to see people that are seniors at college park talking shit about the school that they went to for two years, the school that they went to feeder schools in order to go there for many more years.
i like that i'm apart of the first class, that's exciting, it's something to take pride in.. i just miss the woodlands :\. i miss how at home i felt when i was that campus.. and i hate how alienated i feel when i stand up for something that i'm having a hard time letting go of.
i came into this year hoping for change, hoping that the administration had transformed.. ya know? it's a little more lenient, now that we have seniors and they're like "oh well, they don't give a fuck, why should we?" (kind of how the woodlands is.. but not as.. non chalant about it)
i miss being apart of that tradition.. the feeling that overcomes me going to a home game at moorhead while i root for the school that i'm so dedicated to, so ridiculous about, is overwhelming. i feel so cast out of society. it's like how they always say "everyone wants to be wanted." i feel like i'm stuck in the middle of both schools and it's really hard for me to be loyal to both..
sorry, i just had to get that out.
i know this whole thing seems stupid and all that.. but it's just how i feel and how i've been feeling for a while now.
i mean.. last years decision to go to college park.. it was great because of my editorship this year, but it was horrible because of my grades, my "depression," my hatred that developed toward cp... i just don't see how the two even out.. how i can be so thankful for going to that school that made me editor of the yearbook, and that also, because of transferring failed me in math and failed me as a support system.. completely.
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[Sep. 4th, 2006|05:46 pm] |
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sooo it's been pretty busy lately.
updates..
family: well, Aunt Zo, dad's sister, as most of you know, has leukemia and is in M.D. Anderson for a good while. but we have recently found out that my Uncle Danny, my dad's brother whose house my Aunt Zo (also her brother) lived at before moving down here, has been diagnosed with West Nile :\. it really sucks. i'm hoping he pulls through and is just fine.. knowing his determination and sense of humor it'll be ok.. but he's been unconscious for a good while and now has encephalitis, which "literally means an inflammation of the brain, but it usually refers to brain inflammation caused by a virus". but somehow it hasn't reached his brain yet, they caught it in time.. soo. idk. jeez, what a crazy time this is. (plus uncle danny's mom moved up there, and almost the second she got there was diagnosed with Colon Cancer.. wtf).
school: i've already taken like 3 or 4 tests... 3 weeks into school.. that's crazy. eh, i like my classes. i'm excited about the d.c. trip, it should be educational, interesting, and fun. i'm also looking forward to Europe. i'm anxious about applications and college. i really want to do it and get it out of the way.. ah. haha. brooke and i visited UTSA while we were in San Antonio this weekend and she loved the dorms and the campus almost as much as i do. yay. it would be awesome if she went there, she's fun and i'd actually know someone there to hang out with and possibly room with. if she doesn't go, no worries.. it'll still be an experience!
yearbook: these past weeks we've been in the process of distributing the yearbooks from last year, what a pain in the ass. the setting it up on saturday and having people come pick up their books really bottomed out. ick. anyways, we've got pretty much all of the books gone, maybe 20 or 30 left. this week we're finally going to start on this years yearbook.. i'm excited.. we're throwing around theme ideas, trying to develop the ladder, assign pages, and just get the staff excited about the new yearbook. i'm such a dork! oh well, i'll said it loud and clear: I'M EXCITED ABOUT THE YEARBOOK!
friends/events:everything is going good there. old friendships are being rekindled. football season is kicking off so i'll be pretty busy with that. CELBY- you will come to AT LEAST one game with me this year! at this moment i've got this stupid cold and i feel drained... so i'm not really acting that active, lo siento peeps. love to all my friends!
thoughts on my mind: school, applications, d.c. trip and raising money/getting sponsorships for that, how awesome this year will be, looking forward to the goo goo dolls and counting crows concert, hoping we go to Idaho for Christmas, hoping that both Aunt Zo and Uncle Danny get better/recover.
that's pretty much it. all summed up. :) |
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| My Week: |
[Jul. 1st, 2006|04:18 pm] |
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| | ze condo | ] |
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| |  ready.. ready to go home. | ] |
To do list when i get home:
Get my check
Deposit check
Edit Pictures
Party
Go to work
Get the rest of the weeks work schedule
Go to Tiff's
one regret from this week:
Not taking more pictures while paragliding.. or having more pictures taken before/during liftoff.
plan:
go again next year and get kick ass pictures! :) yayuh. |
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[Jun. 27th, 2006|11:01 am] |
Soo this Vail trip is going quite well.
Dad lost his first game..in overtime against the princeton alumni. He won the second one in double overtime with a longpole goal (meaning he was playing defense and went down the entire field and scored) Then yesterday they won 5-3, and dad had 2 longpole assists!
weho. i love vacation. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
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So I've been chilling at Tiff's just hanging out.. watching tv, swimming..working on that thing called a tan which we pale-ass-mofos do not get. :D.
ah. the boy will not get out of my head! why is he so adorable? I ask myself.
por que.
this summer is fun. relaxing. it's the summer before senior year, fuck yes. livin it up motha fuckas!
my mission: to try and get something done with that boy situation.
solution: unknown.
feelings: hopeful. huge crush.
me=DORK.
:P
VAIL IS COMING! ohhhh soo close! (unless they have scheduled me otherwise... Friday will be my last day of work (for michaels.) YAY!)
boys=take up too much space in my already jumbled little brain. but i like it like that.
jacob- I just read all of your latest postings, as you can probably tell because of the comments that I left. Anyways, I'd like to say that I love being friends with you because of your enlightened and intellectual abilities. you are a genius. I really enjoy that you can teach me new things always, it's truly amazing (even if they are sometimes out of the blue and/or not directed towards just me and/or have nothing to do w. anything that is necessary in my future.) I appreciate your outlook on everything. :D
celby- hun, I know things have been hard lately but they will shape up. You are an adorable, smart, intriguing young women, :P, and any man would and will be delighted to date your cute ass! :D We are going to live it up in Vail, weho! And good luck in Nebraska!!! you'll blow them out of the water. you are AMAZING.
yay.
the end. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|08:17 am] |
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| | A Baby Story | ] |
So I'm looking through myspace bulletins and notice something.
My little sister's friends, little 12 and 13 year-olds, are posting bulletins that are "lists" of "hoes/virgins" at "york/wilkerson."
That's fucked up.
Just thought I'd comment on how crazy the world is.
I wonder what life will be like in ten years, certainly it can't get worse than it is now, right?
:( |
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| This is a blog about nothing. |
[May. 24th, 2006|08:47 am] |
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So, I'm in BCIS right now, just took my final..and now I'm hanging out, looking at this adorable little Yaris (toyota) but the freaking "student server" won't let me go to the toyota website (I have to download the Media Flash player.)
Yay, schools almost out, I can't wait. I really love this little car, it's adorable! 
weho. except I want the metallic blue, awesome.
No exam next period, ah. what to do for the next 3 hours?! jeez.
blah. I'm out
If anyone reads this.. you must be crazy lol
weho. |
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[May. 22nd, 2006|08:34 am] |
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Happy Birthday Momma!
I feel kind of bad.. my mom gave me one request for a bday present (besides the car)...and I failed.
a freaking make-up bag, and I didn't get it for her.. horrible daughter=me.
:(
study group tonight.. well, not really a group, more of a pair.
then bday dinner.
I really wanted to get her a new kick-ass phone, that would be a nice surprise. :)
This weekend I watched Match Point....RIDICULOUS! wow. the ending. wtfff? talk about a twist..that's all I'll say.
hm. Woody Allen = FAREEEEAK. (seriously, who marries their daughter??? even if she is adopted... fucked up.)
I'm done. |
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[May. 12th, 2006|08:32 am] |
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| | Chamillionaire - Ridin' | ] |
Sooo. I got an 86/85/100 on my Research Paper. Exciting? ...maybe? (I thought I failed it because I was so off topic..)
Last night was fun, Anna and I went to see FAME! it was awesome, Celby looked HAWT in her jumpsuit, loving it ;).
I took Tiff home yesterday, I miss her.. but we'll be together soon enough! :) haha. weird-o=me. :D
Anyways, I just ate a donut (yearbook) we're sooo close to being done with the book! yay. All we have to do is index the last few pics, weho!
haha, how I miss the organized ways of The Woodlands Yearbook. wow, I feel like such a flake reflecting back on this year..
It goes a little like this:
My counselor totally screwed up on all of my classes.. so I went in twice to fix them, finally they were fixed.. everything was good, and then I'm like "ha! I'm going to the other school, later bitches!" YO SOY ESTUPIDO.
wow. lame
that's pretty much it :D
oh, and now I'm pretty sure I'm staying all year, nvm on the graduating early... too much stress, for realz. It's ok. I really need to figure out how to get things straight and keep them that way. :D
'they see me rollin, they hatin..' yayuh. I'm a gangster |
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| ARG. |
[May. 4th, 2006|09:32 pm] |
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| | Incubus - Stellar | ] |
ha. so the plan kind of fell through.
I'm really hating on the males right now.
Adam decided we should just be friends :D
ha, that's 2 for 2 for me. :D (2 tries, 2 successful failed attempts)
wtf?
that is a good question.
wtf? |
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[Apr. 28th, 2006|09:59 am] |
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| |  I'm ready for school to be OUT | ] |
I can't WAIT for school to be out.
I can't stand my classes/teachers any more! (with the exception of about three of my teachers...and maybe one class.)
mhm, I'm done ranting :D
Seniors! soo close :D |
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[Apr. 11th, 2006|08:32 am] |
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ah! so in the newspaper this morning there was WONDERFUL news *knock on wood*..
The Duke Lacrosse Team has been through a lot this past month, with accusations out the wa-zoo. They have not found the DNA of the 3 males that were accussed of raping a stripper. This is exciting news. However, the entire season has been ruined for them; they were pulled out of for the erst of the season as the number 1 team in the U.S. league, and their coach resigned. Other than that, everything is looking up. :)
yay for good news.
p.s. I forgot my lunch today so I texted my mom and she goes "well that sucks!"...
me=laugh&cry haha. suckage!! |
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[Apr. 10th, 2006|08:23 am] |
my bday was awesome.
end of story :D |
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[Apr. 7th, 2006|08:50 am] |
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Sooo, yeah.. I have a little bit of ranting to do :)
This whole deal w. the illegal immigration thing, totally annoying! I hope that the bill is passed, sadly.. I agree that we have way too many illegal people here. I realize that they help us out in the areas that we don't want to do (such as lawn services, etc) buttttt the ridiculous part is that we have to pay for them to be here...?
I'm sorry, my motto is pretty much every man for himself. That's just how I am, if you don't agree with it, that's ok.
so the issue at hand, securing the border. why can't people do the right thing? why can't they come here the legal way? I know it takes a long time and all that.. but seriously.. ah, I'm so annoyed w. the issue.
Another thing that is annoying me, freedom of speech is being violated. is it not? People are not allowed to fly their own flag in the county that the flag represents? that's ridiculous! if you don't want to be offended, then go to another damn country! AH. people. fuck them.
yep. I'm done
P.S. BDAY IN 2222222222 DAYS! (two, if you didn't catch that :P) |
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